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Friday, 6 April 2018

Episode 4

After d action,Bode started begging me. I could see he
actually regretted,but d deed had been done already. I
told him to go,i just didn’t want to see him.
He left. I locked d door behind him n started weeping. I wept till my
eyeballs turned red n my head began to ache. I was confused,i didn’t know what to do,i was just
weeping. I couldn’t even pray,i never thought i could do such a thing,i thought i was strong enough to stand. Oh my
God!…How wrong i was!!! D next day was Friday,i couldn’t go to school. I had
headache,so i called my HOD to inform her i would be
absent. She promised to tell d Principal n wished me quick
recovery. I couldn’t attend d burial nor singing practise on Saturday,i
just locked myself up in my room n was weeping from time
to time. On Sunday,i was unusually absent from church. Some choir
members came to check on me after service.

They met me under my blanket,shivering. Now i had
developed emergency fever.
One of them quickly called Pastor Williams who rushed down
to my place with his wife. They took me to d health centre. I was treated against
malaria, given some drugs n injections,and was told to come
on Monday n Tuesday to complete d injection. The Williams brought me back home n asked if i wouldn’t mind
to go with them to their place,so i wouldn’t be d only one at home, i said no, dt i would be fine. So,they left after praying
for me. I slept off n woke up late in d night. Now i felt like eating
something. I looked at my phone,it was 11.17pm. I got up,ate bread with fruit juice n went back to bed.
I couldn’t sleep. I was turning from right to left,left to right
on d bed. Again,i remembered “Let him that thinketh he standeth
take heed lest he fall” 1 Cor 10:12.

I started weeping again. I thought i was standing,now i have
fallen. I so much trusted myself,i was so careless. I opened my mouth n began to pray “Lord Jesus,i have
disappointed u,pls forgive me,have mercy on me. I am
sorry. Now i know better. Help me Lord. Forgive me Lord. Have
mercy on me….” I didn’t even know when i slept off.
When i woke up,i knew i had a dream in which i saw Pastor
Mrs Williams talking to me,but i couldn’t remember a single
word out of everything she said. As i was trying to recollect what she was telling me in d
dream,i heard a gentle voice in my spirit “Go and open up
to her”…. “Ahhhh!.How on earth would i be able to do dt?.I cant
Lord!.I cant!!.”.
we continue I didnt hear d voice again,at least at dt moment.D next
thing i heard was a knock on my door.
Who is dt?.I spoke softly.
I didnt hear any response from d other end.
I moved to d door,unlocked it n opened.

It was Pastor Mrs.She was on her way to school dt monday
morning as she taught in a primary school at Oyan,but she
quickly branched at my place to check on me.
She came with a basket containing pepper soup,jollof
rice,vegetable soup and obe ila alasepo (okro soup with stew
ingredients) She said she didnt know d one i would love to eat,but i
should try and take d pepper soup as it would deal with dt
malaria fever.She told me to warm them as i could see she
brought them out of d freezer dt morning,and couldnt wait
to warm them before leaving d house to prevent her from
getting late to school.

I collected d basket from her,appreciated her and sat on
my plastic chair.
“Can i drop u at d health centre for ur injection?,since its
on d same route to my school”.She asked.
“I’m not ready yet ma,i will take a bike.Thank u ma”.
“It’s a pleasure my dear.So,how are u feeling now?.”
“I’m better today ma”.I answered.
“Oh!.Thank God.My mind was with u throughout d night.I
really couldnt sleep soundly.I started blaming myself for
allowing u to stay here all alone,i should have forced u to
come with us yesterday.But,hope u slept well,and….”
I switched off!..I was hearing in my spirit “Open up to
her!.Open up to her!!”.

Then i heard another voice contrary to dt one saying “Dont
try it!.U’ll disappoint her.U can see how she loves and
cares for u,she’ll withdraw d gesture..What if….”
Suddenly,i felt Pastor Mrs’ hand on my shoulder.
She tapped me and said “Are u okay?.I’ve called u
twice,but u didnt respond.
What is bothering u?.What are u thinking of?.Feel free to
share it with me,i’m a mother..”
Before she could finish her sentence,i cut in “Nothing ma”.
“Hunhun!.Dont tell me there’s nothing when obviously
there’s something.Dt’s a lie,and i dont expect u as a child
of God to tell one,if u dont want to share it,just say u dont
want to share it,instead of saying there’s nothing when
there’s something.”
I was dumbfounded.I didnt know when i said “Okay ma,i
will tell u later”.
“Dt’s better my dear.See u later then.Hurry up so u can go
for ur injection on time.Make sure u eat before u go.” She
“Okay ma.Thanks Mum.”
She left.

I got to d health centre dt morning and saw Bisi.She was
surprised to see me,and also to hear dt i didnt attend d
burial of Bode’s dad.
When she asked “why?” i told her i was sick,but didnt tell
her beyond dt.
As i was getting back home,i met Bode coming out of d
corpers’ quarters.
I was a bit shy to look at his face,remembering what
happened between us.
I was no longer free with him.I wish i
didnt see him.

He gave me souvenirs of his dad’s burial,and said his mum
sent her greetings,and dt she promised to come and visit
me as soon as she could go out.
I took those things from him and thanked him.
Then he said “Sis Sewa,i’m indeed very sorry for what
happened last week.Its d devil.Pls forgive me..”
He wanted to hold my hand,but i didnt allow him.
I said “Its fine!,Its fine!!”.Just go.”

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